Something's Gotta Change
Marnie L. Pehrson
Throughout my youth, I kept a daily journal. While
organizing a closet my husband found a stack of them. I
began reading day-by-day entries from one that covered my
10th grade year. I attended private Christian schools
growing up, but in 10th grade one of my best friends had
already moved on to public schools and I was bored. Although
my life was filled with friends, sports, piano lessons,
learning how to drive, and youth activities, I complained of
being in a rut. I decided if my life was going to change, it
was up to me. I had to make it change.
So in trepidation I approached my parents about going to a
public school in 11th grade. My mother was against it at
first, but eventually relented. Despite pressure from the
private school principle and my basketball coach, my parents
stood by me and let me step into the "real world" of public
high school. Being a mother of six children, I can empathize
with my parents throughout these journal entries. I'm sure
that was a tough decision for them to make – to trust a
16-year-old's intuition about where she needed to go next.
Looking back on this experience, I think, "I didn't know how
lucky I was." From my current position of motherhood, I
can't see that this 10th grader had any right to be bored.
But, had I not made the decision to go to public school in
1982, I would not be where I am today. In public school, I
had two English teachers who encouraged my writing ability.
Also, it was there that I discovered a talent for computers.
Computers were unavailable in the private school I attended.
I wonder if I would be earning my living as a writer and an
Internet developer had I not made the change?
In retrospect, that unsettled restless feeling was telling
me, "It's time to move on. Something's gotta change." I
believe that this restlessness was prompting me in a new
direction. It was God's way of telling me that I had to
change environments in order to obtain critical knowledge
for the future.
Many people resist change. They want everything to stay the
way it is. Perhaps it's fear of the unknown or fear of
failure. Over the years, I have learned to embrace change.
Sure, it's a little unnerving at first, but it can be
thrilling to step out of your comfort zone and learn and
experience something new. Even though a distressing event
can cause changes in our lives, if we look for what we can
learn from the situation and look for the new opportunities
laced within it, we'll be able to use any change to our
Next time you feel a nagging feeling that something's got to
change, ask yourself what it's telling you. Embrace the new
situation, let it work for your good, look for new talents
you can develop, and document your experience along the way.
Twenty years later, you'll be glad you did.
Marnie L. Pehrson,
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and more. She is the author of inspirational books like
You Sure? and
historical fiction such as
The Patriot Wore
Petticoats. She also helps people
earn money from
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